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Hey people!

I'm Tracy Wong, aka Gilmangirl or Dainty Diva. I'm a beauty & lifestyle blogger and I've been blogging ever since 2005


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Bespectacled Me.

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Hi everyone.

The past 2 weeks was a whirlwind of emotions and I started off being very down. Due to sore eyes and a corneal ulcer in my left eye (caused by bacterial infection from contact lens wear), I had to switch to wearing glasses full-time while getting my eyes treated by an eye specialist. I also had plans to go for LASIK surgery after my eye has recovered. Thus, I had to be in glasses for AT LEAST a few months to ensure that my eyes were healthy enough for surgery.




For someone who has been wearing contacts frequently for the past 10 years, wearing glasses wherever I go now was pretty torturous. After all, I only wear glasses at home or when I need to run errands outside home. I haven't worn glasses to school/work, to social events or to my dance/fitness classes.

I had to lead the life of a patient when I had to drip different variants of antibiotic eye drops into my eyes every 1 hour. It would be so much easier if I was at home from Monday to Sunday but I had to do this while juggling my work duties. Additionally, some of my eye drops had to be refrigerated. What the hell. I had to bring along an ice-pack to work and cut down on post-work activities such as events and fitness activities just so I could be at home to drip eye drops. I felt miserable during the period because I've always looked forward to being out and about. Leading a sedentary lifestyle at home made me feel cut off from life, even if it may only be for a while.

2 weeks ago, I posted the above bespectacled picture of me on Facebook and Instagram and surprisingly, I received so much love from my friends. Many thanks to those who wished me well and those who praised me with regard to my bespectacled look. Some friends even private messaged me to ask me more about my eye condition. I am blessed to have this social support and I am truly grateful.

I just want to clarify that I was not in any way trying to receive social validation for my looks; neither was I trying to garner sympathy. I just wanted to embrace the way I look (bespectacled or not), be happy and bring a closure to my insecurities.

Some of you may not know this but my insecurity with spectacles stemmed from my teenage days when I was bullied for years by classmates who made snide remarks about my physical appearances constantly and called me names. I was largely made fun of because I looked nerdy when I wore spectacles and I was also very tanned. The name-calling was so frequent that people addressed me by my nicknames rather than my name. As a victim of bullying, my self-esteem naturally plummeted. To make matters worse, when my mother's friends saw me, they also made comments about my looks. Imagine how a 13 year old girl undergoing puberty and desiring social acceptance must have felt when she heard other adults calling her 'ugly', 'malnourished' and 'so black like an Indian' (no offence to Indians, just quoting what others have described about me).

While other teenage girls were dolling themselves up, receiving praises for their looks and having boyfriends one after another, I started off being rejected by guys due to my physical appearances as well, which really ate into my self-esteem. I remembered having a crush on a guy and I overheard him telling his friend one day, 'ew, I will never like Tracy. See her want to vomit'. My heart sank.

In my 2nd year, I befriended a guy from another class who was deemed one of the most handsome and popular guys in school. Surprisingly, he actually didn't mind hanging out with me and even called me his 'mei'. It was pathetic to admit that I felt happy being seen with him and honoured that he was willing to be my 'kor'. However, my heart fell when he told me one day that his friends were asking him why he was hanging around such an ugly 'mei' and that someone like him should be hanging around prettier girls. I didn't think I had much self-esteem left after that.

It's simple for others to tell you to just be confident and things will be okay but the development of confidence didn't come easy for me. It took me a new environment, new friends, new lifestyle, new goals, a change of mindset, lots of self-assurance and time for me to become who I am today. I am definitely more confident and happy as an adult now but I won't deny that there are times when I still feel low and inferior. Hey, I am only human and I have my vulnerabilities.

When your pace of life comes to a standstill, it gives you plenty of time to observe your surroundings, reflect on situations, think of people and recollect memories. Interestingly, it also made me discover the people who truly care for me. All of us enjoy being with fun and happy people. The reality is that we have our down moments and the people who are still willing to stay by your side to lift you up during these moments are few.

When I am upset, I inadvertently isolate myself, a dangerous sign considering that the usual me loves being around people. Thus, I really appreciate the people who would take initiative to ask about my eye condition after every appointment and the friends who still try to keep me socially connected.


And the people who told me that I look fine/look the same/look as good/look beautiful in glasses? Thank you, sincerely from the bottom of my heart. I love compliments but I never expect people to praise me at this period of time. Perhaps all these compliments may be lies to make me feel better about myself but I wouldn't bother to analyse the amount of truth in other people's words. All I know is that when people care for me through different ways, I grow strong again, ever more determined to return to the bubbly and talkative Tracy that my friends are so used to.

I guess in every dark cloud, there is a silver lining. As I am writing this, my eye has half-recovered. The doctor said that my corneal ulcer has shrunk by 50 percent in size and I am hopeful for a fast recovery. The other great news was that he has also decreased the frequency of eyedrops-dripping so I need not lug around an ice pack anymore. I have since returned to my events and fitness activities as well which was great because I missed them so much. Fitness is an awesome distraction. Working out takes your mind away from unhappy memories and bring you towards better goals and rewards such as obtaining a healthy, fit and toned body.

For now, I can only pray for my eye to have a speedy recovery and for my LASIK surgery to be a smooth and successful one. Wish me luck, people and goodnight!

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Keeping fit with Kinetika Xtreme

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Hey everyone!

This month, I realized just how much fitness means to me when I had my corneal ulcer. It was one of the things I worried about - not being able to engage in my fitness activities conveniently and instead lead a sedentary lifestyle at home.

I always thought that I was into fitness only for vanity reasons. Little did I know that my pursuit for fitness has become part of my lifestyle and well-being as well. I actually like working out and I become miserable if I don't work out for at least a week.

While I was waiting for Advanced Pole Choreography 3 classes to start, I was happy that Kinetika Xtreme came into my life with a generous offer of 12 complimentary personal training sessions.




Kinetika Xtreme is a gym located at The Grandstand @ Turf City. Ulu? You bet!

I was initially hesitant to visit this gym because it was very out of the way and I didn't know how I could travel there without a car. However, my worries were uncalled for because I was told by the gym instructors that there were shuttle buses provided at Clementi MRT, Toa Payoh MRT, Botanic Gardens MRT and Sixth Ave Centre (see schedule here) which drop you right at the shopping mall where the gym was located. Thus, it actually became very convenient for me.




The gym made me so comfortable with its beautiful and vibrant colours that I felt right at home.



The waiting area with nice comfy seats. Lockers and shower facilities are provided in this gym as well.

As for the toilets, they are located behind the gym but I don't think I'll use the toilets there anymore because they were a little... too quiet with no one in there, if you get what I mean. :S




Today was my first personal training session with gym instructor, Harvey. Before I began working out, I had to fill up a questionnaire with my personal details. Harvey also asked about my fitness lifestyle and analysed my body fat composition for me.

I am happy to say that I am in the acceptable range so my next goal is to work towards the fitness and athletes category!

Kinetika Xtreme offers three kinds of programmes, namely Kinesis training, Core Centric training and Cardio.



Welcome to the Kinesis Gym.

The machines that you see in the picture above are Kinesis machines, manufactured by Technogym.

Apparently, these machines strive to establish correct balance between body and mind by assisting with natural movements while providing resistance. Best of all, they can be customized to a user's need and difficulty level.



It's just like lifting weights using a pulley system. You can even practise your chin-ups using this machine!

There are 16 levels of difficulty altogether. Someone like me would probably start with Level 3, while a true-blue athlete would start at a higher difficulty level. In all, this machine caters to all ages and levels of fitness and is even certified for medical use and rehabilitation.

I didn't get to try these machines because my fitness goals for my personal training are: 1) to lower body fat composition and 2) to get abs and muscles. Thus, the Core Centric training was deemed suitable for me.



Core Centric training was essentially the kind of training I was looking for. I've always wanted to do fitness activities that could improve flexibility, strength, endurance and power because these are the skills essential for pole-dancing.

In the Core Centric training room, ARKE equipment such as the Water ball, Bosu ball, Kettelbell, Pendulum and Twin Clubs were used to aid your exercises. While I've always found it fun to exercise with innovative equipment like these, they were honestly not easy to use with their heavy weight and I supposed that's where the challenge lies. Doing squats while lifting a 2.5kg Water ball was interesting at the beginning, but I nearly died when I had to lift a 5kg one. No.strength.at.all.

Here are two videos of Harvey demonstrating how to use the ARKE Pendulum and the Kettelbell:


The Pendulum Lunge with Press, which was one of the exercises that gave me sore arms at the end of the day.


The Kettelbell Row and Walk, which I strangely enjoyed doing.


An example of how a personal training session would look like.

Basically, my 1.5 hours of personal training was in the form of circuit training, with several stations for me to complete.

The instructor would customize a set of exercises for me to do within a certain timing based on my assessed fitness level. He would then stand beside me with a timer, monitor my movements and correct them if necessary and provide moral support at the same time. I had 2 repetitions of 7 stations to complete. In fact, you can see all 7 stations in the above picture. During the 2nd repetition, I was given increasingly difficult movements to challenge myself with. It was pretty hardcore for a first-timer, but I like it.

The equipment was largely fun to use and it made physical training infinitely less boring and torturous. I was told that I have a strong core but I'll need to work on my left arms as left is my weaker side. So true. In fact, as I am typing this, my left arm is aching badly.

In case you are wondering about Cardio, there are 2 forms of cardio exercises, namely Zumba and Body Combat. I didn't get to try this today though.




In sum, I'm a happy girl after a good and strenuous workout! This gym is gonna be my home for the next 2 months and I can't wait to go for my next 11 sessions. I heard that it will get progressively difficult so YAYYY!!

I'll be documenting my personal training on my blog periodically to share the kind of fitness exercises that I've been doing to reach my fitness goals. Do follow my journey with me!

Meanwhile, be sure to check out Kinetika Xtreme's website here. Oh yes, they are giving out 6 complimentary personal training in July so go get them! :)

Disclaimer: Reviews are based on personal experiences.
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Being tanned from a very young age, I always thought that whitening products wouldn't work on me.

Well, not entirely true. I may not miraculously transform into a fair-skinned beauty but I have to admit that using whitening beauty products over the years has given me a brighter and radiant skin tone.

Bio-essence recently introduced its improved Tanaka White range, which consisted of the Tanaka White 4X Intensive White Serum and the Tanaka White Double Whitening Day Cream with SPF20.




Tanaka White 4X Intensive White Serum ($45.80 for a 30ml bottle) is the star product and what's special about it is that it contains a premium whitening agent called alpha-Arbutin which was apparently 9X more powerful than beta-Arbutin, an ingredient typically found in other whitening products in the market. Arbutin helps to brighten skin tone, eliminate pigmentation, maintain skin fairness by preventing the formation of melanin and protect the skin from harmful UV rays.


Classy bottle that comes with a push top at the cap. The purpose of the push top is to push the serum out of the applicator.

The White Serum also contains 3 other useful ingredients such as:

- Tranexamic acid, which curbs the production of melanin
- Kojic Acid, which lightens freckles and pigmentation and helps to treat skin diseases like melasma
- Tanaka Extract, which blocks out harmful UV rays and provides deep nourishment and hydration



Just apply this over your entire face after cleansing. If you have dark spots and freckles, you can apply another layer of serum over these problematic areas.



Tanaka White Double Whitening Day Cream ($29.80 for a 50g tub) works as a day moisturizer and a sunscreen, thanks to its SPF20! Like the White Serum, it contains Tanaka Extract and Tranexamic Acid. On top of that, this product also contains Hyaluronic Acid which locks moisture in the skin, trace minerals and herbal extracts such as ginseng, angelica and gingko. Thus, your skin would be sure to receive lots of protection, moisture and nourishment at the same time. Additionally, it is super easy to use.


Just smooth the cream evenly onto the face until it is fully absorbed.

Be sure to use this ONLY in the day since it contains SPF; do not use this at night before you go to bed. You don't want to end up with breakouts on the face overnight.

My verdict?

I adore the White Serum because the texture was lightweight and it was absorbed really quickly into the skin, leaving it smooth and silky. It also smelled fabulous and looked expensive even though it probably costs half the price of the serums sold in department stores.

The Whitening Day Cream, on the other hand was mildly scented and rather thick so I made sure to apply minimally on my skin. Thankfully, it wasn't greasy and absorption was quite fast too. People with dry skin would probably love this product but people with oily skin are encouraged to use a small amount of this each time.

So... interested to try some free samples?

Just 'like' Bio-essence Singapore's Facebook page and redeem your free samples here.

Tanaka White Serum and Whitening Day Cream can be found conveniently at Watsons, Guardian, NTUC and SaSa.

Disclaimer: Reviews are based on personal experiences.
From The Top
Hi everyone!

Friends who know me long enough would know that I have been battling with excess sebum on my oily skin ever since adolescent years. True enough, my condition has gotten better over the years. But at my age, I am definitely still considered oilier than my peers who have normal or dry skin types.

Excess sebum is caused by several factors such as diet or changes in hormone levels. For me, it's definitely the crazy hormones and the overactive oil glands. Not only does excess sebum gives you a shiny face at the end of the day, it can also aggravate skin sensitivity by disintegrating into a substance that will penetrate the skin when the skin gets more alkaline. When the skin lacks ceramide and its barrier is therefore weakened, it becomes even more susceptible to the damage caused by disintegrated sebum. Now you know why NO ONE likes excess sebum and oily skin.

Fortunately for us, Curel recently introduced a new skincare range that is formulated for people with sensitive, oily and combination skin types. It has
2 objectives, namely: 

1) It aims to strengthen our skin barrier function to protect against external irritants. Additionally, it also replenishes ceramide so that our skin barrier can become resilient.

2) It regulates sebum secretion, thereby controlling oil and acne problems.




This skincare range include a Curel Sebum Care Foaming Wash, a Curel Sebum Care Lotion and a Curel Sebum Care Moisture Gel. I have tested all 3 products and I'll be introducing them to you one by one in order of usage:

Curel Sebum Care Foaming Wash ($19.80/150ml)



This product is a foaming cleanser that ensures thorough cleansing of dirt and excess sebum while protecting ceramide.



Simply apply two pumps onto wet skin and gently massage before rinsing off.

Curel Sebum Care Lotion ($24.90/150ml)




Next up, apply Curel Sebum Care Lotion gently over the whole face. This product works as a toner to close pores and prepare the skin for better absorption of products that are used after lotion. You can apply using hands but I prefer to use a facial cotton.


This lotion looks and feels just like water!

You can also increase the absorption of the product by patting the lotion into your skin repeatedly with clean hands.


Curel Sebum Care Moisture Gel ($34.90/120ml)



Last step, apply 3 to 4 pumps of moisture gel over the face. As the name suggests, moisture gel is a moisturizer. This moisture gel gets absorbed really quickly into the skin, leaving it smooth and matt.


Loving the light, gel-based texture of this moisturizer!

After using these products for a period of time, I must say that I am BEYOND AMAZED. Firstly, the three products were super gentle against the skin and the textures were extremely lightweight. It made the whole skincare routine a pleasant experience. My favourite product has got to be the foaming wash because it even has a mild cooling sensation after rinsing off.

My pores also became less conspicuous and the shine on my face was considerably less at the end of the day. I am normally oily along my nose, my smile lines and cheeks but this time, my skin was matt instead of greasy. How awesome was that?!

I must say...why didn't this skincare range come into my life earlier, especially during my adolescent years when I was all pimply and desperate for miracle skincare products? I am glad to see brands coming up with skincare products that are suitable for oilies now because people with our skin type really need specialized care. To all brands out there, please continue to think of us oilies when you decide to launch a new skincare range! :D

Interested to try?

Redeem your Sebum Care Skincare samples at Curel SG Facebook page here and let me know how you like it!

Curel Sebum Care Skincare Range is available at selected Watsons and Guardian stores.

Disclaimer: Reviews are based on personal experiences.
In Koala Land
My friends, we know what's a hair conditioner, but have you ever heard of a skin conditioner?

If you haven't, fret not. I only got to learn about skin conditioners recently and in this entry, I am gonna introduce a pretty cool product that I have briefly mentioned in my previous entry here.

This product is none other than the Nivea In-Shower Whitening Skin Conditioner and it functions like a rinse-off body lotion that you use after using shower gel. When I was in the States during the winter season, I normally have to apply body lotion after showering because my skin just felt so dry and flaky. However, I didn't bother to do that in humid Singapore because body lotions made my body feel really sticky.




With Nivea's Whitening Skin Conditioner, you don't have to worry about that! The skin conditioner is enriched with 50 times higher Vitamin C from Camu Camu. Its unique water-activated formula gets absorbed by your wet skin and replenishes moisture in your body. It also repairs dull and damaged skin which is just great! After towel drying, you would also notice that there is no sticky feeling from this rinse-off body lotion.



It is also super easy to use and saves a lot of time. After cleansing your body with shower gel, apply Nivea Skin Whitening Conditioner and rinse off. Towel dry as usual and voila, you're done!



I tested this product few days ago and I absolutely loved how it made my skin soft and silky at the end of the day. The texture of the product was thick and creamy and it felt as though I was applying body lotion and then rinsing off the 'stickiness' from my body. As for the whitening effects, I'm sorry but I can't really tell because my skin is still as tanned as ever. :P

Additionally, I smelled like, for lack of a better word, freshly washed laundry. Hey, don't judge - I like clean scents okay!




I agree that it is cumbersome to follow up with another product after shower gel. Thus, I would recommend this product for people with very dry skin who need the extra moisture. Otherwise, for the rest of us, it doesn't hurt to pamper your skin with some extra nourishment, don't you think? I am definitely sharing this with the other ladies in my house. :)

So...interested?

You can redeem your free sample of Nivea In-Shower Whitening Skin Conditioner here.

You will also be able to receive a brochure that will allow you to participate in #NIVEASG #InShowerRevolution Instagram contest to win $500 shopping vouchers and $80 Nivea Hampers. I've already participated in the IG contest so join me!

Nivea In-Shower Whitening Conditioner retails at $10.90 for a 250ml tube and can be found at NTUC Fairprice, Fairprice Xtra, Cold Storage, GIANT, Watsons and Guardian.

Disclaimer: Reviews are based on personal experiences.

Sponsored Review: MegRhythm Steam Eye Masks

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Fancy a day when you can just rest and relax with a soothing mask over your weary eyes?

Tell me about it.

We (or rather I) spent so much time on a daily basis staring at the computer, TV and our mobile phones that we inevitably tire our eyes out. It is thus important to rest our eyes for at least 10-15 minutes before resuming activity.

Now, wouldn't it be great if there is a nice, warm eye mask to soothe our eyes while we are resting? An innovative eye mask from Japan, MegRhythm Steam Eye Mask serves exactly this purpose!




The masks are available in 4 variants: Chamomile, Lavender, Fresh Rose and Unscented.

The moment you put on the eye mask, it warms gradually to a comfortable 40 degrees Celsius. Steam produced from the heat moistens the skin around the eyes and helps to relieve tired eyes. All you have to do is lie back and enjoy the relaxing, steaming sensation for just 10 minutes.

Here's a video of how the mask works:




The target consumer group is working ladies aged between 20 to 49 years old because of the stressful and hectic lifestyle that these women tend to lead. Not only do they have tired eyes from staring at their computers at work, they also have difficulty falling asleep at night. Gosh, that sounds totally me!



I decided to test the Lavender masks first.



Lol, I hate to say this but the eye mask reminded me of a sanitary pad! :S



All right, this side looked much better. The 2 squares are the steaming pads and there are ear loops for you to secure around your ears.

My experience using the eye mask was an extremely comfortable and pleasant one. Upon placing the eye mask over my eyes, I could feel the warm sensation immediately and it made my eyes feel very good. It felt almost like I was in a sauna and the heat was boosting the blood circulation around my eyes. The lavender smell was also very strong and provided an awesome aromatherapy. After 10 minutes, you could feel that the steaming pads were no longer warm anymore and you know that it's time to remove them from your eyes. In all, it was a very relaxing 10 minutes and my eyes were instantly rejuvenated!


Even though the target consumer group is working ladies, I don't see why guys can't use this eye mask. It is perfectly fine for a guy to rest and relax with this steam eye mask the same way ladies do! That is, if they do not mind being seen by their family members with such a girly mask over their eyes. :P

So when should we ladies (and guys) use this eye mask?

Anytime when we need a break!

It can be when we are tired after looking at the computer; when we want to relax before bedtime, or when we want to sleep on a long plane ride. I normally use this during naps or right before bedtime to induce myself to sleep.

Interested?

You can redeem free samples of the eye mask here.

Besides trying the eye masks, why not also participate in a fun Instagram contest?

Contest rules are as follows:

1) Follow @MegRhythmSG on Instagram.

2) Share a photo of yourself using #MegRhythm Steam Eye Mask in the most unique position and comment on what you like about the MegRhythm Steam Eye Mask.



Not a very unique position, I admit but I am trying my very best to take a selfie of me sleeping.

3) Tag @MegRhythmSG and hashtag #MegRhythm in your caption.

Contest ends on 31st July 2014, 2359 hours. Winners will be selected and announced via MegRhythmSteam Eye Mask Instagram on 7th August 2014.

10 lucky winners will walk away with a Relaxation Kit worth $50. Excited? Go join now!


For more information about the eye masks, visit Kao's website here.

MegRhythm Steam Eye Masks cost $6.50 for a pack of 5 pcs and are available in 4 variants. They can also be found at Guardian and Watsons.

Disclaimer: Reviews are based on personal experiences.

Sore Eyes, Broken Heart.

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Hi everyone.

I am unfortunate to have sore eyes (again) and I had to take medical leave from work to recuperate at home.

This made me very miserable as I also had to cancel out on my fitness plans, events and other activities that I was looking forward to. Staying home for 4 days straight just made me feel caged.

I never had problems with my contact lens when I started wearing them at 16 years old. I thought that contact lens and I were best friends and meanwhile, I really hated wearing spectacles. But ever since stepping into the workforce, I have occasional sore eyes. My recent sore eyes made me decide that I will go for LASIK surgery once and for all so that I do not have to deal with all these shit. Sure, the $3K+ cost is a pinch but it beats having all these eye problems.

Right now, I can only pray to have a speedy recovery! Please let me recover fast!!!

Lately, a conversation with a friend about relationships got me thinking and I figured I should write about it here.

I am someone who believes strongly in love. At the same time, I am very attuned to relationship issues. Thus, it would of course be perfect if I have a partner in my life and preferably even be blissfully married by now. But in actual fact, I had one ex-boyfriend in my life and several other 'ambiguous relationships' that didn't work well enough to blossom into an official relationship.

Whenever a relationship fails, it makes me look inside myself and question whether it is my problem. Have I failed to hold the guy's interest? Am I not attractive or interesting enough for a guy to love me? It is very natural to deem yourself unworthy or undesirable, especially when you have to watch the guy that you like move on to someone else. You wish there was someone to tell you, 'Tracy, you are beautiful, inside and out. Don't forget that' at that point but there was none.

Last year, I prayed that I would be spared from heartbreaks after being rejected by a guy and friendzoned by another. 2 heartbreaks were too much for me and I needed a break. However, love doesn't switch off when you want it to because after that, I fell in love again and ironically, I experienced the biggest heartbreak so far.

It was a very confusing relationship. On one hand, I was happy and I felt like a little girl in love again. I was very comfortable with him and every moment spent with him was a chance for me to get to know him better. We shared beautiful memories together and jokes that only both of us knew. For a moment, I wondered whether I have found the one - the person who is gonna spend the rest of his life with me.

Unfortunately, love isn't a fairytale because slowly, I discovered signs that pointed to a failing relationship. As I got to learn about him, I saw glaring differences in our personality, values and outlook in life. I thought I knew him very well, but I didn't. Perhaps you can never truly know a person well enough. I thought I could work things out but I realized that even our communication styles and the way we solve problems were different. At times, I felt distant from him. Sometimes, we didn't see eye-to-eye on the same issue and other times, I felt that I was losing him.

Being in love also means being vulnerable to hurt. The times when he has angered or disappointed me and his gradual distancing from me as he directs his interest to someone else brought me so much hurt and tears. It's been such a long time since I cried myself to sleep. It felt like my heart was taken away from me and then smashed to pieces.
His heart is with someone else now, and I know that there will not be any room for me. I cannot force myself to fit the mold of his desired girl or be a replacement for someone else because I can only be the best version of myself. Thus, I knew I had to let him go as there was no point holding on to someone who couldn't love you for the way you are.

Moving on from this relationship was very painful but at least, there was a direction. I couldn't just sit there, be a supportive 'good friend' and be happy for him that he has found someone new. I couldn't - I am not that magnanimous after all. I may be upset, but I know that I can't wallow in self pity forever. While he is occupied with someone else, I am the only one tearing my heart out. There is only so much my friends can help with their words of advice and encouragement.

I wanted to look at the situation optimistically, that a girl's got to stand up again and move on in order to prepare herself for the next, possibly better relationship. I told myself to let this relationship be a lesson so that I know what to look out for in a lifetime partner. I busied myself at work, my blogger events, my dance and fitness activities and surrounded myself with my friends so that I can concentrate my attention on other people and not have any free moment to think unhappy thoughts. I wrote my feelings out so that they wouldn't be cooped up in my heart. I gradually distanced myself from him, trying to keep our relation as mere friends or acquaintances even though I know that it wouldn't be the same again. How do you genuinely be a friend to someone who has broken your heart?

No one said love is gonna be easy. Getting over someone who has meant the world to you is equally shitty but it isn't impossible. Over time, your heart will heal. You may cry a bit or feel depressed at times when you think of him, but it will pass. You might remember the hurt but your heart will not ache so much. You will change your personality, attitude and mindset towards love because of this experience. Slowly, this guy will disappear from your life as you move on to other people and potentially other relationships. As long as my heart has healed, I will learn to let other people into my life again, to trust and to love someone else. Many ladies might become cynical in love because of continuous heartbreaks but I choose to see it differently. There are different types of guys out there, why give up on the rest just because one guy failed to appreciate you? I would rather try again in another relationship than risk getting hurt by the same guy.

For my readers who are single and have gone through numerous unsuccessful relationships, I hope that you can draw strength from my little story.

Every girl desires to meet someone who will love her for the way she is; every girl desires to marry a man who loves her, have a family with him and grow old together with him. But if this has not happened for you, do not give up. Do not feel that you are unattractive or unworthy of love because someone has broken your heart. Know that you are beautiful and that someone out there is waiting to meet someone like you. Just as you wish to meet a great guy, you've got to be the best version of yourself for the next guy you meet in your life as well. So good luck, everyone!

Oh, and by the way, thanks to those who have texted me to wish me well for my eyes. I was quite surprised by the well wishes but it feels great to be loved and cared for when I am confined to my house.

I have lots of backlogs for my blog entries but I guess I have plenty of time to blog about them now so stay tuned for them! See you soon!

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Hey everyone!

Last week, I had the honour of witnessing one of my closest friends in life, Bev walk down the aisle to the next stage in her life - marriage. Her husband and her have been together for 12 years and I am overjoyed to see this loving couple tie the knot.




Balloon sculptures made by our university friend, Chris.



The beautiful bride in her wedding gown and her evening dress. Lots of people have commented that she looks like a princess/celebrity. I personally also see her as a natural beauty. For someone who doesn't bother to dress up or wear makeup on normal days and can still stand out in the crowd, she sure is something. Additionally, her personality really humbled me. Thus, I am glad to have an awesome friend like her. :)

My role during her wedding was simple. I was supposed to be in charge of tea reception. But Bev wanted me to also accompany her when she does her hair and makeup + change into her evening dress so my role became immensely bigger all of a sudden. I was also honoured to accompany her in the bridal car and fluff her gown before she walked down the aisle. I never knew that watching a good friend get married so blissfully to a man who loves her so much can make me feel so happy.




Gorgeous flowers. Couldn't resist taking a picture of them.



The couple got married at Galilee Bible-Presbyterian Church.



And they held their dinner banquet at Raffles Marina, where they had a very cool boat march-in.

To Bev and Josh, if you're reading this, I sincerely wish you a blessed marriage and may you stay loving always. :)



The next day, I went with 2nd Sis to enjoy a game of Focus Pocus at Exit Plan. Thanks to Pearly's blog giveaway, I won a complimentary ticket to this game.

Basically, we were locked in a room for 50 minutes and in that 50 minutes, we had to solve a bunch of clues that would lead us to the key which we could use to escape from the room. When the timer started and we were given the first clue, we didn't even know where to begin. Unfortunately, Sis and I didn't manage to escape from the room after 50 minutes. We were stuck at the 2nd last clue instead, ha ha.

In all, it was still an uber fun and memorable experience for Sis and me and we had such great teamwork. Sis is the logical one who can solve puzzles very quickly (especially those that require calculations) while I am more creative and will think of crazy possibilities. I am so glad we didn't play in a big group or else it might be too chaotic in a small room. :)



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Spent Friday night watching How to Train Your Dragon 2, thanks to a treat by Sis.

The movie was light-hearted and hilarious and I am liking Toothless (the black Night Fury dragon in the poster above) more and more! Toothless really reminds me of an adorable and obedient puppy.

In fact, it even prompted me to watch How to Train Your Dragon 1 the next day when it was showing on TV. If you haven't seen this movie yet and you're an animation fan, go watch this! :D




This year, Dad got to enjoy 2 Father's Day dinner treats from the family.

The first dinner treat was at Poulet on Father's Day itself. My family members had other appointments so 2nd Sis and I brought Dad to try amazing French roast chicken at Poulet. It was delicious to the max and my Dad enjoyed it. The Poulet Roti truly lived up to its name as the signature dish of the restaurant.

We also ordered Braise de Canard (i.e. braised duck leg pictured above), Oxtail de Bourguignon (forgot to take photo!!) and some baguettes for dipping. They were yummy as well but the Poulet Roti triumphed above all. All main courses were $15.80 each which wasn't too unreasonable for French food. If you were to visit this restaurant, I recommend you to share food as well so that you can try the other main courses.




The second dinner treat was at Ju Shin Jung Korean Charcoal BBQ a while ago. This was a bigger scale celebration that involved my other family members, my brother-in-law, my Aunt as well as my nephew and niece. And yes, this was possibly one of the rare times that we were celebrating Father's Day in a Korean restaurant. We normally go for Chinese.

We went for ala carte dishes instead of Korean BBQ. The food was so-so, maybe because I've tasted better. The only dish that stood out for me was the kimchi pancake at the bottom right hand corner. Then again, we didn't choose this eatery because of the food, but more of practical reasons. There was actually an indoor playground for the kids to entertain themselves while the adults indulge in their food feast. Well, my parents enjoyed their meal though so I guess that's what's most important.




On an unrelated note, I got my roots touched up, hair highlighted and hair trimmed yesterday and I was pretty pleased with the result even though it took the entire afternoon. I no longer feel the heaviness of my thick hair and I was also happy that dyeing my hair brown managed to conceal my hideous white hair. Yes, for those of you who do not know, I have a couple of strands of white hair since secondary school and it's unfortunately due to genetic reasons - not because I was too stressed in life! I was told that there's nothing I can do about it other than dyeing my hair so alas, that's the only solution.

On an even more unrelated note, I was just reading my old blog entries that I had written when I was 16-17 years old and boy, I was actually quite bitchy and vulgar (albeit with a sense of humour) last time. Nonetheless, I don't feel embarrassed or ashamed about who I was during my teenage years because my life experiences shaped me to be who I am today. Nobody is perfect in this world and it's our little imperfections that make us more interesting. I'm not afraid to show the world who I am and who I have been.

And you know what's cool about keeping your old entries? You really see the way you transform in terms of personality, worldview and outlook in life. When I started documenting my journey in life, I was a vulnerable girl with low self esteem who was bullied by classmates in secondary school for her tanned skin and her nerdy looks. Years later, I was less socially awkward in a new environment but I was vengeful, bitchy, angry and vulgar. I was pissed off about everything in life and I had lots to complain about. I supposed that my insecurities in secondary school just got manifested in a different way in junior college and I turned into an angry bitch who attacks people before they attack her.

My pessimism in my younger days led me to realize that if I carry on behaving as though the whole world owes me a living, I will never ever be happy in life. This prompted me to live life optimistically; to learn to treasure even the smallest things in life; to always have hope and dreams even if the going gets tough and most importantly, to love others. Of course, there were other things that happened along the way that made me want to live my life happily - I made inspiring friends, I fell in love, I found my own identity, I developed a myriad of interests and hobbies, I admitted my flaws, I learnt to have fun and laugh at myself. I also learnt to be grateful for every opportunity that comes my way.

Few years ago, two people that I knew passed away and they were around my age. When I heard of the news, I was in utter shock and disbelief. What did they do to deserve passing on at such a young age? There is so much about life to experience - to fall in love, to get married, to have children, to grow old together with their partner. All these chances to live life were just taken away from them just like that. Although I wasn't particularly close to them, this startling news made me realize just how unpredictable and unfair life can be. We focus so much on planning for the future as though we are going to live forever, but what happened about living in the present? I knew there and then that my goal in life is to be happy and to live life to the fullest. Surprisingly, with the right mindset, happiness is actually attainable. I want to continue seeing life beautifully and living life with hopes and dreams. When life is short, there is no more room for the negative anymore.

Thanks for surviving my long entry. I'm starting to get a bit of migraine so I'm going to bed.

Goodnight world! I'll be back to blog soon!
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